Final Farewell

Mayauru the fairy lost her memory and lived alone in the forest. One day a girl happened to come by and they became friends. The girl called lots of friends and they all played happily but Mayauru wasn't human and aged slowly. The children grew up and eventually forgot about Mayauru. And then, the girl that she first met... was the only one left. But that girl grew up and wouldn't play with her anymore. Even so, the grown-up girl couldn't forget Mayauru and came back. Finally, Mayauru gave the lonely-looking girl a present. Words of farewell. Until then, people didn't know of the words of farewell. Mayauru was a farewell fairy. She'd forgotten that because it's painful to have nothing but farewells. The grown-up girl learned the words from Mayauru. And that girl who knew the words of farewell...? She became the world's kindest person. Shouldn't we just part with a smile? Sayounara.
Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien
Last Episode
The time for farewells is finally upon me and I would bear it as happily as I could. Besides from the fact that it is inevitable, everyone knew right from the start that I am just a fleeting shadow -- just passing by;but nonetheless, they befriended me. Just like Mayauru, being an exchange student is like being a farewell fairy. First I said goodbye to my family, to my friends, to my life and went off to a land unknown. I've found myself a new family and met a lot of friends to play with, momentarily forgetting that I am a farewell fairy and that before I know it, I would be saying farewells all over again. This time, a farewell that just doesn't say "I'll see you later" but, mixed with the fear of the reality that can happen, "We'll never see each other again".

Farewells should not be "I'll never see you again" but rather "I had fun being with you" because if the words "I'll never see you again" wouldn't do anything to change your fate, it is just folly to do it.

This is my gift to you: my words of farewell.
Farewell that says "I had fun being with you"
Farewell that says "I am a better person after I met you"
Farewell that says "I will never forget you"
Farewell that says "You are always in my heart"
Farewell that says "Thank you for everything"
Farewell that says "I love you"

I am, but a fairy of farewells.
Shall we part then with a smile?

Good bye.
Paalam.
Ha det.
Sayounara.
Arrivederci.
Au revoir.
Auf Wiedersehen.
Adeus.
Adiós.
再见.

PS: for wrong translations, just send me a message.

February 22, 2007

My Last Dance

I dreamt last night.

I dreamt about my 4th year dance competition.
The one where we ended up 3rd place, if I remember it right..
I remember the cheers in the cramped gymnasium..
I remember the wild beating of my heart, out of nervousness or adrenaline, I can't tell..
I remember the white gloves, top hat and the 'suplado' look that we were asked to wear..
I remember the practices where I rarely said a thing, no protests from me..
I remember myself thinking that my classmates would probably think I'll start another revolution among the guys..
I remember the wooden staff covered in electrical tape that we used as a prop (I do hope it's still at home)..
I remember the look my partner gave me as a part of the dance..
I remember it all..

I have been wondering all those time why the f*** am I dancing..
I sure didn't want to win.. I mean, I never really cared about winning or not and it was quite uncomfortable for me seeing my other classmates cry right after performing because they knew we didn't stand a chance in winning.. I never really cared..
It's not a cream1-cream2 hate relationship either.. my girlfriend's in the other class so I really can't completely hate that section, can I? (Though I admit, I have dislike for the section at one point in time) /hate would be a too powerful word/
It's not because we paid either..

I guess because it was my last year and I said to myself that I'm not going down without a fight..
I knew I gave my best.. gave my all..
I did not protest.. I did not do anything to distract or delay any practices.. I even helped the others learn the step..
I think I wanted to leave a legacy.. I wanted to leave a legacy for myself..
That one day, I can say to myself, I danced as if my life depended on it..

I really loved dancing after all..
and I still do.

Memories of Our Last Dance.
This is for you Matulungin 05-06
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1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Well written article.

11.11.08

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